Got it - if possible I'll stick to just letting him know there have been problems continuing to pop up.
Oh, I absolutely get you. To this day, I get nervous if I feel like there's a CHANCE someone might TRY to provoke me; you just get so wired to be ready for those situations to get really messy, and it's just... exhausting. And you're totally right, even though I doubt nobody here thinks that way, it just... sucks so much to hear. It almost makes it worse in some ways, at least for me - it ends up feeling inescapable, and I'm not even the one on the receiving end of that treatment.
Yeah, that can just be between us - though. I'm halfway tempted to explain my own situation to Shiro here if necessary? Knowing him I feel like there's a good chance it won't BE necessary, but... I don't know, part of me just really wants him to fully understand where I'm coming from here, why this all hits so hard.
[It might be the gay part.]
Christ, right - I'm so sorry you're having to deal with this now.
Ugh, yeah; I hate having that crap VALIDATED, you know? The last thing I need is more ammo for the worst parts of my psyche to use to tell me I need to keep reacting that way to stress. I'm sure you can imagine, this kind of reaction is why I ended up wiring myself to respond passively to begin with, and I really hate it sometimes.
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Oh, I absolutely get you. To this day, I get nervous if I feel like there's a CHANCE someone might TRY to provoke me; you just get so wired to be ready for those situations to get really messy, and it's just... exhausting. And you're totally right, even though I doubt nobody here thinks that way, it just... sucks so much to hear. It almost makes it worse in some ways, at least for me - it ends up feeling inescapable, and I'm not even the one on the receiving end of that treatment.
Yeah, that can just be between us - though. I'm halfway tempted to explain my own situation to Shiro here if necessary? Knowing him I feel like there's a good chance it won't BE necessary, but... I don't know, part of me just really wants him to fully understand where I'm coming from here, why this all hits so hard.
[It might be the gay part.]
Christ, right - I'm so sorry you're having to deal with this now.
Ugh, yeah; I hate having that crap VALIDATED, you know? The last thing I need is more ammo for the worst parts of my psyche to use to tell me I need to keep reacting that way to stress. I'm sure you can imagine, this kind of reaction is why I ended up wiring myself to respond passively to begin with, and I really hate it sometimes.