[Why is this so hard. Why can he not just agree to talk to someone? Especially when it's just so plainly offered to him. It's an ear, it's a shoulder, and Grant is offering. Holding it out. Telling him it's all right, that he can bend a little.]
[You can, if you ever want to]
[No he can't. He can't but -]
i cant and i dont know why
[... oh if he ever sees another snorunt again it will be too soon.]
That's alright, and it's nothing to apologize for, either; understanding your own mental processes, including hesitancies like that, is a learned skill, and it can be really difficult. Being reluctant to seek help when you're not used to it is really common, too.
...I hope none of this is coming off as patronizing. I just want you to know you're not wrong or failing for this.
[All of you. Grant had hoped he'd gotten his intentions across right, that he was making sense without just pushing Shiro further than he was comfortable with, but--
Well, it makes sense. Who does he think he is, anyway?
He takes a deep breath, tries to will away the knot of guilt twisting up in his chest. Okay. Just explain yourself. Either it works or it doesn't, just... don't bow out right away, that'll only make him feel worse.]
There's a difference between people wanting you to be able to overcome something that's not good for you, and thinking you've done something wrong. I'm not blaming you for what you're struggling with, and, though I can't read anyone else's mind, I would guess the same is true for the others close to you. And that includes your struggling with accepting help. We don't want you blaming yourself for it, either; it's not your fault.
Okay. I'm sorry, anyway, for pushing. I can go if you'd rather.
[If that I can't do this was about the whole conversation that just happened... he figures he'd better.
But he can't go without warning. Again, he suspects Shiro would just beat himself up over that.]
[Yes it is - it comes out verbally, with a rush of exhausted breath. Okay. He didn't have to type that. Maybe that's the key here. He just has to let it out, somehow.]
They're doing pretty well. They, uh, seem to be drawing in a lot of wild Pokemon lately? Which, y'know, is exciting for them, if sort of stressful for some of the rest of us, ha.
Oh, god, all kinds. I, uh-- actually think it's another Snorunt thing? It started after they were playing with a bunch of 'em, all around the house. But since then, there have just been... a lot of Pokemon.
Gonna be real, I don't think they've tried. And... I haven't either, honestly. If they don't want the Pokemon being driven off, I'd feel like an asshole doing it.
Yeah. I couldn't be happier about that, honestly; the more directions they're being supported from, the better, and at this point that is... a lot of directions.
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[You can, if you ever want to]
[No he can't. He can't but -]
i cant and i dont know why
[... oh if he ever sees another snorunt again it will be too soon.]
i dont know why i cant im sorry
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That's alright, and it's nothing to apologize for, either; understanding your own mental processes, including hesitancies like that, is a learned skill, and it can be really difficult. Being reluctant to seek help when you're not used to it is really common, too.
...I hope none of this is coming off as patronizing. I just want you to know you're not wrong or failing for this.
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all of you keep saying its not right and what am i
It's not patronizing. I just can't do this.
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Well, it makes sense. Who does he think he is, anyway?
He takes a deep breath, tries to will away the knot of guilt twisting up in his chest. Okay. Just explain yourself. Either it works or it doesn't, just... don't bow out right away, that'll only make him feel worse.]
There's a difference between people wanting you to be able to overcome something that's not good for you, and thinking you've done something wrong. I'm not blaming you for what you're struggling with, and, though I can't read anyone else's mind, I would guess the same is true for the others close to you. And that includes your struggling with accepting help. We don't want you blaming yourself for it, either; it's not your fault.
Okay. I'm sorry, anyway, for pushing. I can go if you'd rather.
[If that I can't do this was about the whole conversation that just happened... he figures he'd better.
But he can't go without warning. Again, he suspects Shiro would just beat himself up over that.]
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[Yes it is - it comes out verbally, with a rush of exhausted breath. Okay. He didn't have to type that. Maybe that's the key here. He just has to let it out, somehow.]
I don't
know what to say
maybe I should go.
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If there's anything else you want to talk about, if only just to distract you then I'd like to help with that
But if you'd rather go, that's alright.
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How is Chip?
[That's safe. And that's something he genuinely wonders about.]
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Something, at least]
They're doing pretty well. They, uh, seem to be drawing in a lot of wild Pokemon lately? Which, y'know, is exciting for them, if sort of stressful for some of the rest of us, ha.
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What kind of pokemon?
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[They are!! Talking!!]
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[There they go!!]
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Yeah
Yeah, I get that. At least, hopefully, this snorunt nonsense is temporary?
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Hopefully.
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Yeah, I'm trying not to think about it.
And hopefully Chip doesn't wind up attracting a herd of dangerous pokemon.
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[And he should probably be working harder to keep away from that topic, so--]
Hopefully! At least, if they do, they've got a lot of adults *and* powerful Pokemon to look after them.
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They're pretty lucky that way, huh? Lot of good role models.
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If they ever need a support out here in the Islands? Happy to provide.
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