Yeah! Yeah, uh-- [Grant scribbles down a couple final words in his notes for Chip's upcoming lesson plans, then gets up to go open the door and let Ashe in.] C'mon in.
[Since Ashe had said he wanted to talk privately, Grant closes the door behind him before asking:] So, what's up?
[Ashe gave a quick smile on his way inside.] Thanks. [Immediately after the question Ashe started to mess with the bottom of his hoodie. He was never good with such questions, but he had one on his mind since they had that sex ed talk a few days ago.]
Um, so, I guess I should just come out to say it. [Ashe took a small breath to gather his thoughts before he talked again.] I've had a crush on Dedue since our time at the academy, but I pushed it away each time because I didn't want to be a bother. There was so much going on back home too that made it nearly impossible to think that anything could happen between us. Now that we're in this new place where I don't have a lot of the responsibilities as I did back home a lot of my feelings are coming back. So I guess I have a crush on Dedue, but is it alright since he's in a relationship with Dimitri now?
[Ashe knew it was a lot to say at one time, but he couldn't get his jumbled thoughts together. He hoped he got them together enough to get his point across.]
[Grant went and sat down on his bed, pulling his desk chair over for Ashe as he got started talking, and...
...Man. That was a lot, but he certainly couldn't blame Ashe - for wanting to get it all out, or for the problem itself. That problem was, uh... well. It was familiar. But it sounded like Ashe had been dealing with it for quite a bit longer.
Grant nodded, slowly, rubbing at his jaw.] Huh... yeah, that's a tough one.
Well, to start with: You can't help your feelings, so it's definitely "alright" to like Dedue, no matter what. In addition, I can be pretty sure that Dimitri won't mind if you want to pursue something with Dedue - I'm sure he wants Dedue to get as much love as he can.
Really? I've felt bad about it for awhile because when Lysithea and Yuri were here I liked them a lot too, so I don't want it to look like I used them as a distraction or anything. [Ashe sighed as he took a seat then slid his fingers through his hair.]
I never had time to really think about my feelings, until I got here. I know that I like a lot of people that I didn't want to overstep my bounds since Dedue is in a relationship with Dimitri. You don't think he would mind?
I don't think anyone here would think that; there's nothing wrong with having feelings for more than one person. [He laughs quietly, and gestures just sort of... around.] I mean, obviously, a lot of us here would be hypocrites if we did think that.
Not at all. If you're really not sure, you could always check with Dimitri before saying anything to Dedue?
[Ashe gave a small smile as he messed with his fingers. He didn't think about that he was a little nervous about admitting having feelings for more than one person. Even though he's seen that everyone has been so accepting of this new lifestyle he was still nervous about pursuing someone who was a part of that.
Then again maybe it would be okay.
Well at least he wasn't as nervous around Dimitri like he used to be.]
Do you think I should let him know? Well, I probably should since it will be easier to let him know this way instead of having Dimitri find out. I just didn't want to overstep any bounds or anything.
If you want to tell him, I think you should. [Speaking of being a hypocrite.] I don't think you'll be overstepping - and the only way to be sure of any part of this is to ask.
It is easier to talk to him here than back home. [Despite Dimitri's numerous attempts they were able to talk, but it was much harder between their schedules even if he tried once he got over his nerves about being so casual with the crown king.]
Yeah you're right I'm still really nervous about it, but I think I should it. It would stop Ky from trying to give Dedue my journal. I started writing my thoughts down and Ky knows which journal has my feelings for Dedue it it. He's been trying to leave it around places where Dedue goes around a lot.
Thanks Grant I was so nervous bringing this up since having all these feelings are pretty new to me. I pushed it back for so long I didn't expect them to return. I'm gonna think about a time I can tell Dimitri then one day tell Dedue. I don't know when, but I don't feel as bad about it.
[Ashe laughed with a fond shake of his head.] I had to hide my journals in a new spot. He's distracted now, but I know he'll be looking for them since I talked about my feelings.
[Grant nods, giving a relieved smile.] That's really good to hear. I know how stressful this stuff can be; even if you can't say anything right away, I'm glad you feel better about it.
Ha, yeah, I bet. This... might sound extreme, but if it gets to be too big a problem, have you considered getting a lockbox or something for them?
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[Since Ashe had said he wanted to talk privately, Grant closes the door behind him before asking:] So, what's up?
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Um, so, I guess I should just come out to say it. [Ashe took a small breath to gather his thoughts before he talked again.] I've had a crush on Dedue since our time at the academy, but I pushed it away each time because I didn't want to be a bother. There was so much going on back home too that made it nearly impossible to think that anything could happen between us. Now that we're in this new place where I don't have a lot of the responsibilities as I did back home a lot of my feelings are coming back. So I guess I have a crush on Dedue, but is it alright since he's in a relationship with Dimitri now?
[Ashe knew it was a lot to say at one time, but he couldn't get his jumbled thoughts together. He hoped he got them together enough to get his point across.]
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...Man. That was a lot, but he certainly couldn't blame Ashe - for wanting to get it all out, or for the problem itself. That problem was, uh... well. It was familiar. But it sounded like Ashe had been dealing with it for quite a bit longer.
Grant nodded, slowly, rubbing at his jaw.] Huh... yeah, that's a tough one.
Well, to start with: You can't help your feelings, so it's definitely "alright" to like Dedue, no matter what. In addition, I can be pretty sure that Dimitri won't mind if you want to pursue something with Dedue - I'm sure he wants Dedue to get as much love as he can.
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I never had time to really think about my feelings, until I got here. I know that I like a lot of people that I didn't want to overstep my bounds since Dedue is in a relationship with Dimitri. You don't think he would mind?
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Not at all. If you're really not sure, you could always check with Dimitri before saying anything to Dedue?
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Then again maybe it would be okay.
Well at least he wasn't as nervous around Dimitri like he used to be.]
Do you think I should let him know? Well, I probably should since it will be easier to let him know this way instead of having Dimitri find out. I just didn't want to overstep any bounds or anything.
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Speaking of being a hypocrite.] I don't think you'll be overstepping - and the only way to be sure of any part of this is to ask.no subject
Yeah you're right I'm still really nervous about it, but I think I should it. It would stop Ky from trying to give Dedue my journal. I started writing my thoughts down and Ky knows which journal has my feelings for Dedue it it. He's been trying to leave it around places where Dedue goes around a lot.
[Ky isn't much for pining.]
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[Grant laughs quietly, and boy is he relieved that none of his Pokemon are, uh... proactive in quite that way.] Ooh, boy, of course he has been.
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[Ashe laughed with a fond shake of his head.] I had to hide my journals in a new spot. He's distracted now, but I know he'll be looking for them since I talked about my feelings.
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Ha, yeah, I bet. This... might sound extreme, but if it gets to be too big a problem, have you considered getting a lockbox or something for them?