I'm not sure if you were having a moment of panic, or your mind was withdrawing, or both. Steven had a word for it that I don't remember at the moment. I'm so sorry that your memories were affected. I can only imagine that making things more distressing in the aftermath.
And I fear my reaction to Lance's comment and your distress only distressed you further. I am not human. My species has different reactions to stress and I snarled and bared my teeth at Lance. I have worked to control such reactions for a very long time, because I don't want to distress or frighten other species, especially since so many have been hurt by members of my own species. And I'm learning as a result of this that humans are very threatened by the gesture.
In light of that, I'm apologizing. My control slipped, and I am truly sorry for that. Is there any way I can make amends?
Ah, yeah. Disassociation. Can't... say I'm a big fan of it, but it's got its purpose, I guess.
[And then... he stops, and re-reads that. He almost has to laugh. He doesn't, but almost.]
Oh my god, Thace, I'm so sorry that's been bothering you - you don't have to apologize to me for that. For one thing, in all honesty, I barely noticed. For another
[Might as well explain that now... he suspects, from all he knows, that Thace will be pretty understanding.]
I'm... I guess you could say a different type of human from most humans here? Snarling isn't really that new or alarming to me, I promise.
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And I fear my reaction to Lance's comment and your distress only distressed you further. I am not human. My species has different reactions to stress and I snarled and bared my teeth at Lance. I have worked to control such reactions for a very long time, because I don't want to distress or frighten other species, especially since so many have been hurt by members of my own species. And I'm learning as a result of this that humans are very threatened by the gesture.
In light of that, I'm apologizing. My control slipped, and I am truly sorry for that. Is there any way I can make amends?
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[And then... he stops, and re-reads that. He almost has to laugh. He doesn't, but almost.]
Oh my god, Thace, I'm so sorry that's been bothering you - you don't have to apologize to me for that. For one thing, in all honesty, I barely noticed. For another
[Might as well explain that now... he suspects, from all he knows, that Thace will be pretty understanding.]
I'm... I guess you could say a different type of human from most humans here? Snarling isn't really that new or alarming to me, I promise.