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Grant Abaroa ([personal profile] woofdad) wrote2020-10-28 06:38 pm
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[victory road] IC CONTACT

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donoteattheweeds: (shoulder)

[personal profile] donoteattheweeds 2022-04-26 03:54 am (UTC)(link)
Nevertheless, I find it difficult to reconcile with what I know of myself.
donoteattheweeds: (gods fucking dammit felix)

[personal profile] donoteattheweeds 2022-04-27 03:03 am (UTC)(link)
I have been told as much, and the reactions of others have frequently confirmed it.

If it will satisfy your curiosity, I have mostly been described as frightening, brutish, or cold. One of my classmates told me that though she was not frightened of me, she found my features to be aggressive. Children have cried upon seeing me. Mothers clutch their children when I walk by.


[So, y'know. There's that.]

I understand that the prejudices of the Faerghan people do me no favors in this arena, but all instances of someone finding me frightening cannot be contributed entirely to just that.
donoteattheweeds: felix is still a bitch (thinking thinky thoughts)

[personal profile] donoteattheweeds 2022-04-29 03:53 am (UTC)(link)
Do not apologize. You have words for things that I do not, and I am grateful to learn them.

It is true that many spoke to me with deliberate malice. Some are merely ignorant, and while their ignorance is contemptible, I understand why they cling to their prejudices. The death of their king threw their lives into disarray. My people are easy culprits. The people of Faerghus wished to see a villain in our faces, and they have found what they sought.

However, even disregarding the prejudice against me in Faerghus, I do not possess features that are considered beautiful even outside of the Kingdom.
donoteattheweeds: i have concluded that felix is a bitch (i will consider this carefully)

[personal profile] donoteattheweeds 2022-05-01 03:28 pm (UTC)(link)
Fine facial features like His Highness’ or Sylvain’s are considered ideal. Hair color may be more of a personal preference than anything else, as I have heard admiration expressed both for Sylvain’s red hair and for Felix’s dark. Pale skin, of course.

Height is also attractive, in particular to Faerghans, though only until you start striking your head off of door frames.

My features are too coarse and my body built on too large of a scale to be generally attractive.
donoteattheweeds: (gods fucking dammit felix)

[personal profile] donoteattheweeds 2022-05-09 03:43 am (UTC)(link)
I suppose it is reasonable to assume that I may not be viewed so unfavorably among my own people, though I cannot say that I have asked. When I was with them, I was more concerned with healing from my injuries enough to return to His Highness than with something so superficial.

It is still strange, though, to think that my features are not so unpleasant as I have been led to believe. It is also difficult to argue with what has been posted openly in a public forum. The praise is effusive.


[Definitely not just being kind and trying to console him that his face really isn't that scary. Actual praise as though he should have been able to look into a mirror all this time and know that the face looking back at him is somehow... handsome?]

Though if what you have said is true, is it not strange that Lorenz and His Highness share that opinion? They would have both been raised to view faces like mine as unattractive, His Highness in particular.
donoteattheweeds: (crossed arms)

[personal profile] donoteattheweeds 2022-06-20 04:00 am (UTC)(link)
Than it is a matter of familiarity, rather than structure?

[He supposes there is some sense to that. Dedue has been loyal, and Dimitri thus learned when they were young to see past the otherness of his features and knows that his face is not one to be frightened of. He knows that regardless of what his countrymen tell him. Lorenz is still an outlier with no solid explanation, though.]

I suppose that it matters little, however. For as long as I am in Faerghus, I will be judged based on their standards, even if it is not fair to do so. I should not anticipate anything else.

[So, y'know. What he'd been doing.]
donoteattheweeds: (gods fucking dammit felix)

[personal profile] donoteattheweeds 2022-07-06 07:45 pm (UTC)(link)
Perhaps.

[Big ask, Grant, but he'll at least try to remember that most people wouldn't look at him and see a man who's kin to regicides.]

I am, at least, glad to know that I may not be so frightening to people here as I was in Faerghus. I did not enjoy children's reactions to me, nor their parents' reprisals, but I had few ways to ease their fears.
donoteattheweeds: (dedon't)

[personal profile] donoteattheweeds 2022-07-08 05:47 am (UTC)(link)
Indeed. I have not had cobblestones thrown at me in nearly a year. It has been an unexpected luxury.

[Somehow, the more people learn about Faerghus, the more reasons they have to not go to Faerghus.]
donoteattheweeds: felix is still a bitch (thinking thinky thoughts)

[personal profile] donoteattheweeds 2022-07-17 04:45 pm (UTC)(link)
Yes. Though I suppose I should note that I experienced less open hostility than the rest of my people. While I was with His Highness, they could not be actively violent towards me without it being construed as an attack on their prince. The Dusci people living in Fhirdiad had no such protections.